Well . . . I came to my room today to think.

 
It blows my mind sometimes to think that I, seem so weak and helpless at times. There are times when I can't rid myself of the burdens, pains, struggles. Why does that seem so difficult at times. I recieved the call this morning , Moe is home with Hospice Care , he will be home to die instead of being in the hospital. The time has come that he is no longer able to swallow, his wife asked that an IV be inserted to give him hydration and nutrition. The hospice service pressured Moe's wife to not have it done.
" We " are , in my opinion, being brainwashed to save money.
Well those are two very different views, but it does show that we must continue to strive to build trust of those we serve. Palliative care does not necessarily mean inexpensive care. There is often a great deal more resources poured into the human capital with palliative care as opposed to the technological but there is still a lot of time (and therefore money) being directed towards good quality end-of-life care based on evidence.
“There is a need to promote policies which create conditions where human beings can bear even incurable illnesses and death in a dignified manner,” pointing to the need for more palliative care.Stand alongside the suffering and to attend to the dying striving to preserve their dignity at these significant moments of human existence.”

We want to win this battle yet we ( all ) struggle to the end. I guess that is our sinful human nature trying to take care of all things ourselves. I seem to get lost in other people's lives. The funny thing is I love to get lost in other people's lives.
I have found a true connection with some of you people, just reading and getting to know some of you has been a gift. I realize that I can be myself. I just want to write from the heart and right now I feel as though I can go on forever.

Sometimes though, I want to scream at the world.

Thank you ~ all your thoughts , prayers , love and support has sincerely touched my soul ... my heart feels the love.
Jade ~

PS. I love you Moe ~